;; i didnt want it to end this way

I read a note my Grandma wrote back in 1923
Grandpa kept it in his coat, and he showed it once to me
He said, "Boy, you might not understand, but a long, long time ago,
Grandma's daddy didn't like me none, but I love your Grandma so.
We had this crazy plan to meet and run away together
Get married in the first town we came to and live forever
But nailed to the tree where we were supposed to meet instead
I found this letter, and this is what it said :
"If you get there before I do
Don't give up on me
I'll meet you when my chores are through
I don't know how long I'll be
But I'm not gonna let you down
Darling wait and see
And between now and then
Til I see you again
I'll be loving you
Love, Me."

I read those words just hours before my Grandma passed away
In the doorway of the church where me and Grandpa stopped to pray
I know I've never seen him cry in all my fifteen years
But as he said these words to her, his eyes fill up with tears
"If you get there before I do
Don't give up on me
I'll meet you when my chores are through
I don't know how long I'll be
But I'm not gonna let you down
Darling wait and see
And between now and then
Til I see you again
I'll be loving you
Love, Me."

Friday, February 17, 2006

i want to run away
away to a place where no one would find me
where happiness and good feelings are the only feelings we have
where misery and sadness never exists
where people behave like they are
where deception never shows itself
where everyone sees the beauty in another person
where pure and simple love lives on
where everything is like what we want
where we have everything we love with us

i was just being stupid
i shouldnt be feeling like this
it was along just me

ive never felt like this before
is this the end

someone please take me away
i want to escape from all this nonsense
from this horrible place where feelings get hurt

i want to go to the beach
and scream from inside me
i hope the waves at sea take me away
to a place and never bring me back

i hate this place.
im begging you to take me away
please..

i need to SCREAM!!

;; right from the beginning